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Thursday, May 23, 2013
Nightmares... nothing to dream about
If you read my last post then you know that I had an anxiety attack yesterday evening. Well, the fun didn't end there. I went to bed around 1 AM, and fell asleep instantly. That is when the nightmares began.
I had 6 back to back dreams that had me waking up in a cold sweat. I am now afraid to go back to sleep anytime soon.
What do I do? I know I can't stay awake forever. Maybe I will have a movie night or something.
Well if you have any suggestions feel free to leave it in the comment section.
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
Breaking up with anxiety is hard to do
Today started out fine... I woke up this morning ready to go out to breakfast with my mom. We went to my favorite restaurant Black Bear Diner, split a delicious Joe's Hobo Omelette, and then went home. Eating wore me out, so I attempted to take a nap.
The universe decided a nice peaceful nap was not in the cards for me today. First there was a bird that seemed to be right outside the bedroom window, so I shut the window. Then my cell phone kept going off, saying that I had a text, when in reality it was just junk mail. Finally, I fell asleep and my phone rang... again. That time it was my dad calling, I answered and he wanted to know what I was doing. I grudgingly told him I was trying to sleep, he said he'd let me go back to sleep. I fell back to sleep after a few minutes, but then it was time to go to the store with my mom.
I had a minor headache when I got up, but it wasn't too bad. I started grocery shopping and there seemed to be a lot of impatient people there today. It seemed like every aisle was jammed packed full of shoppers and finally I couldn't handle it anymore.
By the time we exited the store my head was pounding, I was in a cold sweat, my nerves were raw, and my pinky toe was throbbing from where I ran it over with the cart. I got in the car and told my mom what was going on, she deals with anxiety attacks too, and she suggested deep breathing, visualization, which I tried.
I knew I had somewhere to be in an hour, but I couldn't see how I was going to make it. I tried fighting the migraine by taking Advil Liquid Gels, but it took too long to kick in. I finally texted my supervisor and let her know I couldn't make it. The thing is, I really wanted to go, but after an anxiety attack and a migraine I just didn't have the strength to go.
I've been dealing with anxiety for a few years now, I've been through counseling, done the deep breathing, visualization, safe place, etc., but sometimes I just have to say I'm going back to bed... unless of course the attack happens in bed, then its I'll sleep later. Nonetheless it still sucks when I feel like anxiety got the best of me in a sneak attack.
I guess I'll finish up by saying that my head still hurts, not as bad, and my nerves are still raw, but at least I took care of myself by knowing what I couldn't handle today.
Night,
Happily Solo Girl
The universe decided a nice peaceful nap was not in the cards for me today. First there was a bird that seemed to be right outside the bedroom window, so I shut the window. Then my cell phone kept going off, saying that I had a text, when in reality it was just junk mail. Finally, I fell asleep and my phone rang... again. That time it was my dad calling, I answered and he wanted to know what I was doing. I grudgingly told him I was trying to sleep, he said he'd let me go back to sleep. I fell back to sleep after a few minutes, but then it was time to go to the store with my mom.
I had a minor headache when I got up, but it wasn't too bad. I started grocery shopping and there seemed to be a lot of impatient people there today. It seemed like every aisle was jammed packed full of shoppers and finally I couldn't handle it anymore.
By the time we exited the store my head was pounding, I was in a cold sweat, my nerves were raw, and my pinky toe was throbbing from where I ran it over with the cart. I got in the car and told my mom what was going on, she deals with anxiety attacks too, and she suggested deep breathing, visualization, which I tried.
I knew I had somewhere to be in an hour, but I couldn't see how I was going to make it. I tried fighting the migraine by taking Advil Liquid Gels, but it took too long to kick in. I finally texted my supervisor and let her know I couldn't make it. The thing is, I really wanted to go, but after an anxiety attack and a migraine I just didn't have the strength to go.
I've been dealing with anxiety for a few years now, I've been through counseling, done the deep breathing, visualization, safe place, etc., but sometimes I just have to say I'm going back to bed... unless of course the attack happens in bed, then its I'll sleep later. Nonetheless it still sucks when I feel like anxiety got the best of me in a sneak attack.
I guess I'll finish up by saying that my head still hurts, not as bad, and my nerves are still raw, but at least I took care of myself by knowing what I couldn't handle today.
Night,
Happily Solo Girl
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Sanity... never heard of it
In this day and age, everybody wants to be normal. I say to hell with that, I've been there and attempted to do that... needless to say that didn't work too well. I tried for a long time to fit in with the in-crowd, but I never seemed to be in on the secret jokes or know what was in style. When I stopped trying so hard, I found out that there are people my age that like me for me.
However, sanity is not the same as normalcy. Sanity is the soundness of mind, where as normalcy is conforming to the standard or the common type. So what I want to know is how do you find sanity as a teenager in a world full of drama, packed schedules, and of course raging hormones?Also are you sane even if you deal with depression, anxiety, antisocialness, or have gone through puberty? These are the questions I want to know the answers to, yet know one I know has the answers... except God, but he's not sharing right now.
I think I've given you guys a good idea of how this blog is going to be.
However, sanity is not the same as normalcy. Sanity is the soundness of mind, where as normalcy is conforming to the standard or the common type. So what I want to know is how do you find sanity as a teenager in a world full of drama, packed schedules, and of course raging hormones?Also are you sane even if you deal with depression, anxiety, antisocialness, or have gone through puberty? These are the questions I want to know the answers to, yet know one I know has the answers... except God, but he's not sharing right now.
I think I've given you guys a good idea of how this blog is going to be.
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